given more than beyond measure.

i am so thankful for: my immediate family. my extended family. my cefc family. my focus family. my high school friends. collision/united front kids. eat n' p. food. indiana pa. shelcota. an amazing house. all the amazing people who have filled it- especially over the past 5 years. safety. a future. possibilities. clean water. money. electricity. technology. laughing. friendly faces. democracy. freedom. education. love. and. so. much. more.

11:54 PM | | 0 Comments  

in the end.


'... so in the end every major disaster, every tiny error, every wrong turning, every fragment of discarded clay, all the blood, sweat and tears - everything has meaning. i give it meaning. i reuse, reshape, recast all that goes wrong so that in the end nothing is wasted and nothing ceases to be precious to me.'

10:07 PM | | 0 Comments  

you know that hurt?

i'm not gonna lie. i just spent the last hour and a half watching videos from a night at focus. ha it was a late night. it should have been filled with writing a paper and hours of reading... but, in apt 1021, it was filled with prank calling- everyyyone in omega. ha.
can i just tell you? my soul hurts. i want to go back. right now. like there was a clip of me and ash having a lil fight :) i want that back. there's the click of ben hanging up on me after 3 seconds. well that could be replicated i'm sure if i called him right now :) but it wouldn't be close to the same. hahaha where do i even, ugh, start? how are we supposed to deal with the realization that some things we will just never get back?
so many feelings. ah and writing never seems to come close to capturing them. all i know is... jan 09 to april 09 was the highest peak in my life. it was like being on top of pike('s peak). look down and everything seems so orderly, so figured out. then you get back down to those roads that once looked so perfectly planned and you realize you have no clue what's going on.

pike...

from the top of pike...

my soul longs to be on top of the mountain again...
...like nothing else.

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just dreaming. counting the ways to where you are.

i want to: go to times square for new years. live in a loft in a city like chattanooga. live in another country, like ireland or africa. play background music in a coffee shop. climb a 5.11. write a song. skydive. know myself. loose 15 pounds (get healthy!). run a marathon. understand world religions. get an slr camera and use it. paint more. read more. love more. dance in the rain with someone i love. vacation on a lake. get a golden retriever. meet a best friend. be an awesome mom. work in a coffee shop that's not a chain. influence groups of people who are in the stage of life i just graduated from. rd at focus would be amazing. live into me. change the parts of the world i come in contact with. live.


... there's never a wish better than this when you've only got a 100 years to live ...

5:59 PM | | 0 Comments  

uncommon.

" i want to finally take the road less traveled...
...i want to run away from anything typical...
...i want the world to see the life i'm living...
...and call it... uncommon. "

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