i love my roots. :)
this is me and my pop
my pop is amazing. even though i grew up on the other side of the state, he is a huge part of who i am.
he, and my nana, raised my dad and his siblings to be the awesome people they are, and the stories of him growing up make me almost wish my growing up was a little more like his. the lyons family is ridiculous... sometimes i almost cry because i'm laughing so hard at the stories i hear- and i wasn't even there for their making... i am so proud to be a lyons.
my pop is getting older and he's not doing so well now. what i'm realizing as i have already lost one grandparent and i am realizing i will probably loose another this year, is how vastly different generations really are. i used to have a lot of pride over being part of the most emergent generation. i was so proud that i was in the generation most up with technology and social networking and everything else, but to be honest, as i look around at the work we really live in, i breaks my heart.
i don't know if i've ever been scared to grow up before, but there are aspects of it that have started to scare me. really scare me. i go to the mall, walmart :), wherever you go a lot. i look at the kids, parents, families that are walking around and most of the time all i can think is 'man, this world is messed up'- not in a judgmental way, just in a really sad realization way. then i look around again and wonder what it would have looked like when my dad was growing up.
part of me wishes that i could grow up in my dad's house, and see how they did things, so that i could be the parent he and his siblings are- so awesome, with such a background, such a life, and then another part of me realizes that sometimes being scared is just part of growing up. sometimes i wonder if my nana and pop were ever scared when they 'grew up'. they are such solid people. i wonder...
my family is amazing. i am so proud to be a lyons. the lyons' are awesome. really. i wouldn't ever trade these roots. not for anything.
this post is all over the place. but i do not apologize :) i'm just getting little bits out at a time... trying to figure out life... and what it looks like for me. :)
thank you God that i am a lyons. i love it. so much.
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... i think this is because i am learning to see my self as part of a whole instead of as a complete individual. without my family, i am not me. ...i like that :).
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